“It's funny the things that annoy me now. All the things in my life that have changed. All the things I was actully guilty 2 months ago of doing. We have done exctully 3 shows so far and when ever I introduce the Jonas Brothers theres shouts of "I love YOU NICk!" I know it's the stupidest thing ever but it makes me feel I don't know betrayed. I mean these are my fans too it's not like they don't know he's mine it's all over the magzine. It's just when people are famaous you lose the belonging to one another factor. Girl code dosn't apply. It really should but were public property. We can love one another but there are millions of other people loving you guys too and the scarest thing is....they might love them more than you do. I have woken up drenched in sweat the last 3 days in a dream where Nick is meeting a fan and the fan kisses him. It'so horribe having to live with this stress on a tour bus while each time you wake up your in a different place than you where in before. Maybe I'm just losing it over nothing. Nick would never allow that to happen. But you see it wouldn't be his fault. I mean yesterday when we were watching a movie he said "I'll always be yours Jade". It's so sweet but he belongs to everyone he's not like some teddy bear that I can keep locked in a drawer he's a rock star that more than 3 million people have on their poster filled walls. I know maybe this is just obserd but at least I'm getting my own bodyguard today! Yeah! Okay Summer got me my own because um a girl jummed on my table I was eatting lunch with Nick (everyone eles were at different scattered tables) so she could get an autograph (she ended up on my lap.) So now I have my very own bodyguard I just haven't met him yet. "Jade hello earth to Jade!" Great Miley is waving her mancured hand in front of my face again. I really wish she would leave me alone I have decided though to be nice till I find out whats shes up too. "Um..yeah what?" I ask her snapping back from my worries about Nick. "As I was saying.." she says looking at me anoyed. "I just saw someone leaving flowers on the front door step. "Really?" I say jumping up and going to the front door to peek and see. I look down and see violet roes which are my trademark. "I wonder who sent them" I ask Miley not really caring about the anwser it had to be Nick. I open the door and pull in the flowers. And try to find a card. "There's no card" I say putting them down on our booth me and Miley are eatting our lunch at in between sound checks. "I don't know" she says confused. "it can't be for me your the one famous for puple roses. It's probaly Nick." She says shugging off her confused look. "Here I'll call him and ask." She gives me an suit yourself look and goes back to her salad. Whenever I call Nick it always gives me and thrill because it's like OMJ I HAVE NICK J on SPEED DIAL. But then I have to calm myself by saying yeah um he's my boyfriend. It's a pretty harsh system. "Nick J here." His voice always sounds so different when he anwsers the phone then it does when he relises I'm the one on it. "Hey Nick" "Hey Gem." I love that Nickname I mean how cute is he! "Oh nothing I just got the roses you sent." Theres a pause. "I didn't send any roses." Huh? ”