“"When I came to Nick was right there holding my hand. Brooke was on the other side of the room talking to Kevin and Joe. Nick didn't realize it, but I was crying."I want to go home.", I said fighting tears back."What?", he said shocked."This can't turn out like one of my daydreams it just can't. Right now I'm dealing with to much, and my agent said I can't even date you.", I said now sobbing."We can work this out, I promise.", he said now crying himself.I started to feel sorry for myself , I always pushed away what I wanted for fear of losing it. I pushed away my step-mom, the most wonderful person I had ever meet, then she died and I never said goodbye. I could tell her everything, but she wasn't my mom so I pushed her away. Now Nick Jonas was crying for me, and I'm pushing him away. In a matter of days my life has changed, and I don't think I can deal with this."No Nick we won't, I need to get on my feet before I can do anything.", I said settleing down."I really like you.", he said."I like you too."He then kissed me and left. Would I ever see him again? How did everything go from perfect to horrible in a matter of minutes? I had to go home, but my agnt wouldn't let me. Do I have what it takes to be a rockstar?Two weeks later:I am still wondering what it would have been like if I went to that concert. That is all over now. Brooke is taking me to an audition in Hollywood for disney channel. The movie is called A Girl In the Crowd. I don't know what it is about, but it is a musical. I guess they like the road camp rock and HSM took.When we got there I read over the script in the waiting room. I was trying out for the main part. I will get to have an onscreen realationship, this should be fun. When I got in there they were asking Brooke a bunch of questions. They then asked me to sing for them. I got the same response I always did. They loved me, they told me they would let me know if I got the part before next week.When I got home, I had moved in with Brooke, I googled Nick. I was surprised to find out that Nick would be starring in a new Disney Channel Movie after they were done with there sold out Burning Up concert. No one knew what he was starring in, but I had somewhat of a clue.Will Meaghen ever get Nick and keep him. Is it just not meant to be? I will post more later today or towmorrow. ”